Back in 2015, I was having a tough time with some negative experiences that were resurfacing for me for no obvious reasons at random times. 

Not often. Maybe once every 10-15 days or so. 

But they would pop into my head, and seemingly take over my thoughts in a dark and morose way, until I realized what was happening and shook them off. 

No idea why. 

And that lasted for a few months. 

Then in 2018, I experienced the same thing after a bad car accident. The first time was on a car trip to Tennessee. A friend was driving us over some mountains, and suddenly, I imagined the car just driving straight off the edge and plunging below. 

Maybe imagined is not the word. 

I felt it happen. 

Which made zero sense, since the car accident I was in in 2017 had nothing to do with mountains or plummeting to my death. 

But those sorts of split-second musings would pop up for me for the next two years. Infrequently, but always when I was driving, and always something where I was gonna die in my car. 

I still flinch when people nudge too close to the car I'm in from their lane (we were sideswiped). 

Anyway, in January of 2016, I wrote about recovering from trauma, and I sometimes go back to that writing that I did for someone else to help them—to help myself. 

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